Thursdays In The Valley – Part 27

“There’s more.”

“Tell me.”

“I told her the woman I was seeing was pregnant, and I was the father.”

She sighs heavy, rests her face in her hands . . .

“After I told her that, she stopped crying. She didn’t even look at me or say a word. I saw her reach down and unbuckle her seat belt, I looked back up at her and with in a split second, she had jerked the wheel and the last thing I remember was a realization we were going off the road and then a flash of blue light. Then I woke up a few hours later in the hospital.”

“My God . . .”

“They told me our car had swerved off the road, hit a tree and then flipped into an on coming car. Then they told me my wife was dead. A couple hours later the police came to speak with me. They told me a woman and her two children had been in the car we hit. Then they told me all three of them were dead.”


“They had a lot of questions. Apparently there were no skid marks at the scene. They said it looked as though she had just calmly driven off the road, head on into a tree.”

“I’m sorry. I don’t know what else to say, I’m so sorry that happened to you.”

“Do you understand now?”

“Understand what?”

“I am responsible for the death of four innocent people. Four out of five people died that night. If anyone, it should have been me. I was the only guilty one there. My wife was a beautiful person, I never meant for any of it to happen. I never wanted to cheat on her, it was never anything I was looking for, it just happened.”

“What happened with the other woman? Your child?”

“After she learned what happened, she wouldn’t speak to me again. She had our baby but refused to let me see him. I tried, I even went to court to try and get visitation rights but I was a fucking mess, drinking, had gotten in to some trouble . . . the judge sided with her. I’m not allowed within a hundred yards of my son.”

“That is not right . . .”

“So I gave up. I moved out here two years ago to try and get as far away from things as possible. But you know, you can get away from things but you can’t get away from yourself. I’m always here. Everywhere I go . . . and that’s the problem.”

“You’re wrong.”

“I’m wrong?”


“About what?”

“About all this. What happened was not your fault. Yeah, you were wrong to cheat on your wife but you are not responsible for how she reacted. That was her choice. She decided to kill herself and you. You had no control over that. And the woman and her kids, that was a fucked up result of the choice your wife made. You did not drive that car into that tree. Your wife did.”

“But she drove our car into the tree because of what I had done. If I had not cheated on her, she never would have done that. I made a choice, I cheated on her and the consequences of my choice are four dead people.”

22 thoughts on “Thursdays In The Valley – Part 27

    1. This could have easily been my story had I not be as strong as I am. I am still sitting here in tears. I already have compassion but you’ve somehow tapped into a relatable character who further takes me into the pysch I try desperately to understand! And I must admit, it makes me a little proud for not leaving him with the heaviness this character carries. Wow.

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