I watch the blood run down my hand
Drip from my fingertips, splash on the floor
All I can do is think to myself
How much I really don't give a fuck anymore
But this, like everything else
Is just superficial
Another worthless gesture
Another failed attempt
That changes nothing
I try to remember the last time
I was worthy of anything, but can't
I look in the mirror, staring back at me
Is the most pathetic thing I have ever seen
I smear the blood across my face
At least the ridiculousness of that
Brings a smile
What if one of these times I don't stop
What if I finally get deep enough
That I can't go back
In that moment
Will I regret what I thought I always wanted
Beg for forgiveness, cry out to be saved
Or welcome with open arms
That sweet escape, my final performance
The curtain fall
Maybe then, I'll finally understand
Something
Yeah, what if
Guess I'll just take a shower
Put on long sleeves
And clean the fucking floor
-Again
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Fuck. This is absolutely perfect. And I get it. Every single word, having been there before… again and yes, again. That picture. It’s glorious in it’s terribleness. Righteous in its filth. Oh those nights. Those days. Those encapsulated thoughts swallowed dry without a glass of water to chase them. This is so good, Stories. So fucking good.
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Thanks Tara.
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Self-harm is a very real and tragic mental condition. You have captured it well.
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Thank you.
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Wow…. this is penetrating. I’m not sure I can express how this makes me feel. Uncomfortable? Yes, but in the best possible sense. You do dark very well. I love the image you chose to accompany it, too. This is excellent. 🙏
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Thank you very much, I appreciate you reading.
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You had me at ‘Another worthless gesture’. I understand this all too well. Please be good to yourself.
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Thank you, and you too.
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Sad sad sad, so fucking sad. Your words captured the mental state perfectly.
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Thank you.
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Ouch, this stung. The apathy towards an act like this, nail on head quite definitely. Very well written. I hope that you’re okay. To write this is to live it I think. Or, at least, to certainly understand it more than most.
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I’m okay, thank you for reading and commenting.
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Wowwwww
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Thanks Rita!
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My pleasure. It’s truly amazing.
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Stories, though-provoking, emotional and disturbing. Terrific way to shine a light on self-harm and how easily it can be covered up. ~ Mia
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Thank you Mia.
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I RELATE SO MUCH TO WHAT YOU WROTE HERE. VERY WELL DONE ON TACKLING THIS TOPIC. LOVED YOUR WORDS, XXX
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Thank you very much for reading.
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Wow. I love this!
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Thank you!
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When in such a dark place little matters ~ words of desperation ~ a reader can visualize the scenario. Well-written!
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Thank you.
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I miss your posts a lot I think. I have random times I get to read and often very brief.
Sad about that
I love where you take the mind of someone like this
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Thank you, I appreciate you reading when you can.
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I try all the time
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it is that one moment that makes all the difference
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It sure is, thank you.
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Ha…oh the pragmatism of realising you are wallowing in your own self made swamp of blood and wounds. Clean it up and get on with things…could be my mantra some days E. This is what I like about you…you tap into so many levels of the psyche so well.
Love ❤️
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Thank you!
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My pleasure always, E
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um….BLOODY MURDER!!!!!
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Thanks for reading!
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Dark, beautiful, real. Thank you
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Thank you for reading!
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The pleasure is mine 🤗
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Just SO powerful!!
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Thank you!
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Wow. What a great write. The harms ones do to themselves is captured so well
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Thank you!
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My pleasure
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You have a very beautiful unique style which makes your writings…just amazing!!
Keep it going… you’re really talented!!
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Thank you very much for your kind words, that means a lot to me.
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I felt the desperation in this piece… very dark but very good.
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Thank you.
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You’re welcome.
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This. This is so raw. I really like how you use line breaks and the space around the poem. Maybe you’d like to do an interview for my blog? I’d love to get to know you better!
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Thanks for the kind words. Hmm, I’m not sure how good I would be at an interview, but I really appreciate the offer and would be willing to talk about it. If you want to email me, it’s thestoriesinbetween@gmail.com. Thank you.
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Okay! I appreciate it I’ll get back with you
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Sounds good.
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Raw and something a lot of people can relate to. Excellent!
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Thank you very much.
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Good reading your posst
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Thanks.
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